2026-05-25 @ 6:23pm

Keeping up with people has never been my strong suit. It’s a toxic trait that even I myself can recognize. I can genuinely call someone my best friend, but when I move away from them (to the point where meeting up face-to-face becomes infeasible), they might as well be a stranger. The reason I’m like this is that I am not where I want to be in life, and I am afraid of being pitied, afraid of feeling inferior.

The bible teaches that with pride comes shame (Proverbs 11:2). My pride and, by extension, shame is preventing me from keeping the ones I once loved close to my heart. I understand these things, but find it nigh’ impossible to act upon it.

I’m sorry to those I’ve hurt. Please be patient with me.